Tuesday, December 27, 2011


I hope everyone had a great holiday!  We certainly did! Lots of great family and fun. To catch up I'm officially 32 weeks along and as anyone whose ever been pregnant knows that's the big milestone that means you better get your butt in gear because a baby is coming soon!  We had another appointment today and as long as the neurosurgeon can sign on we are official for little Eddie coming on February 14th. Happy Valentine's Day!

The appointment went ok today. Little Eddie's ventricles have grown in the last 2 weeks they are now 1.8 and 2.2. :(   That stresses me out a bit but I know with him growing comes ventricles growing it would only make sense. A little piece of me just wants to hear some sort of miracle information to change things. We won't know how anything is affecting his brain until he's here and has had an MRI.  Fingers crossed it won't have much affect.

The doctor also did an exam today and my cervix is thinning and softening which is great if you're having a normal birth but seeing that we're trying to schedule everything and push this pregnancy as close as we can to my due date, not so great. Also, seeing as I'm having killer "contractions" all night (which is even making writing this difficult) needless to say I'm not having the greatest night. Luckily they are all over the place time wise.

So since I'm totally losing focus I'm going to sign off tonight and try to get some rest. Especially since I'm supposed to be paying attention to movie night with the hubby!

Goodnight all!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Another boringish appointment!

Yesterday was our 30 wk appointment and we had an ultrasound and appointment with the OB and we also had a consultation with the NICU.  The ultrasound went great, ventricles went from 1.4-1.8 and according to the doctor that can easily just be a misplacement of the cursor on the screen. So YAY 30 weeks and the ventricles haven't done much which is awesome! We're really hoping they stay small or get smaller and we may not need shunts! Fingers crossed. We also found out that the opening on his back is only 1/4"-1/2" wide and long which is awesome since this means low infection chances and easy healing time. We've also found out that Feb 13th or Feb 14th is a likely date for little Eddie to be scheduled to be here. We're hoping for Feb 14th, nothing like bringing all that love into a day about love! 
We then met with one of the NICU doctors also and took a tour of the NICU. He was such a nice doctor so cute he kept telling us how great he thought we were and what a good feeling he had about us.  Telling us how positive and amazing we seemed to be handling it all. A lot of people tell us this, it's hard for us to understand. We feel like what would we not be positive about? We know there are a million worse positions we could be in. We're bring a beautiful little boy into our family, exactly what we've wanted.  We've overcome a crazy couple of years in our relationship and found our way back to each other stronger than ever. From where I'm standing the world looks pretty bright. Don't get me wrong. I'm emotionally drained and have some tough days. Today included. I cry more than normal (although I'm sure some of that comes with being 7 months pregnant) and I worry a lot about the times ahead, but all in all thank god for my extremely silly husband and daughter.  They keep me giggling all the time. Their energy is infectious! I hope Little Eddie has that same infectious personality!
Here's a little Eddie Bella personality to make you giggle!

Monday, December 12, 2011


Funny how when I was pregnant with Bella I was excited and scared at the same time. Scared mainly of just the unknown. I hadn't been around a lot of babies and had no clue what to expect.  I don't remember being very nervous about labor although, I think I didn't freak out about that until my water broke and I realized she wasn't going to be protected inside me anymore.  This was it! A baby was coming! When we found out we were having another little bundle I was excited to have a "I know what I'm doing" pregnancy. How hard could it be I've already done it once before.  Now I find myself (especially today) full of anxiety of the unknown again. Maybe more this time. The weird thing is I'm not so much nervous about the challenges our baby and ourselves will face with the SB diagnosis but more with small things like the c-section, I'm freaking out about being cut open while I'm wide awake right there. It's just not normal! They say you can't see anything but just knowing it's going on is too much for me!  Get the smelling salts ready because I'm sure I'll pass out before they even get the baby out!  I'm pretty nervous about not getting to hold my little guy right away, all I keep thinking is some nurse is going to be soothing him and stuff before me! I want to be the first person he bonds with and no one else! There are about 10 million other things giving me anxiety but if you know me you know that this is nothing new.  I'm usually a bundle of nerves.  A certified crazy person! I fixate on trivial anxieties and let them drive me nuts to later realize it isn't that big of a deal.  So tonight is another one of those nights.  Tomorrow is our ultrasound, ob appt, and consultation with the NICU. I think we may also be finding out a tentative date for the c-section. That I'm most excited about since I love to plan.  I'll post tomorrow night to update you all about our appointments. Let's cross our fingers for another "boring" one this week! :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Epic shoppng!

Again, I've lagged on the blogging! Shame on me! No excuses this time either. :( So yesterday we headed out to the mall, mom myself and gram to go register for my "sprinkle" and get some Xmas shopping done. After all these years of us all shopping together I should have known better. Six and a half hours and we didn't even finish one floor! We are not quick shoppers :) Throw in 7 months pregnant and fibromyalgia and needless to say I'm dragging today! Who cares I feel like we got a ton accomplished! This Xmas season I've been feeling like I always have a long list of stuff and none of it gets done! Plus I've been getting a good amount accomplished for work too. This is my favorite holiday and although I didn't put on my usual crazy decorating hat, I did add a few things around the house!  Every year gets more and more exciting watching Bella get into the holiday. She's insistent of celebrating all holidays of this season Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, and Christmas. She attends a catholic school for pre-k (even though we're not catholic, and I think we're probably the only ones) and keeps asking the teachers to sing Hanukkah songs. They even played dradle with her. It's so cute watching her use her own words for things like "Cheez-It's" for "Jesus" and "cradle" for "dradle" it's super cute because she usually has a better vocabulary than me and pronounces everything perfectly. I think she just likes to hear me giggle when she says it wrong. Tomorrow I'm sending out our 60 Christmas cards and can't wait! I'm so excited to really soak in our family and friends and appreciate this last Christmas with just the three of us before our family expands. I can't even imagine what Christmas will be like when Bella isn't the center of attention anymore. What a rude awakening it will be for her. I hope that everyone is enjoying this season as much as I do and if not then go take a ride to look at some stellar light displays and listen to some cheesy holiday music (my station is now programmed to holiday music all the time!). It's sure to put anyone in the spirit!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Boring Appointment! :)

Sorry I haven't written in a bit.  We had another doctor's appointment on Monday and it was so crazy to see how different the ultrasounds look now that we're in the third trimester.  This whole pregnancy Eddie and I have been saying that it would be great to go to an appointment and walk out feeling like it was a "normal" appointment. No talks about ventricles size differences or alarming news or anything. Just a regular appointment about how cute our baby looks and a "see you in two weeks".  At this point we are always prepared for even a small amount of new news about what's going on.  This week was the magic week.  Ultrasound was perfect, no change in ventricle size the baby has gained weight (which is great since two weeks before they we're concerned since he was so tiny) He's about 2 weeks smaller than most babies.  I'm not worried at all though, although Bella was a nice average 7lbs 15oz when I was born I was only 5lbs 14oz. So what if he's tiny!  When the doctor said he was 2lbs 4oz I thought it sounded so big, up until now we weren't up to pounds it's weird thinking there is something growing inside of me that's a whole 2lbs!! After the ultrasound we headed to the doctor to chat with her, and again another perfect appointment. Not much to chat about other than my wonderful pregnancy heartburn and Eddie's usually chatty cathy chit chat. Sometimes I think he could spend the whole appointment chatting about himself! :) It's ok though that just means the more he can chat the less we focus on the SB. Actually come to think of it we really didn't even mention the SB and it was awesome! Fingers crossed that the rest of our appointments will go the same way.  In the next couple of weeks we'll be having our NICU consultation which will hopefully be our last consultation before the baby comes.  At 32 week (I'm 28 1/2 now) I'll start going for ultrasounds and appts every week to conduct a biophysical profile which sounds like a big deal but it's really just a scoring system to keep track of the baby. You get scored 2 points for each "normal" thing for example, heartbeat, breathing, movement etc. Luckily our little guy already shows off during ultrasounds (other than his face, we have still yet to get a good pic of his face) hes constantly moving around and beating up my belly when we're there.  He clearly doesn't like anyone touching mommy other than him. That's my momma's boy! We'll also make a tentative delivery plan. Since I'm a planner I like this part best! I'm not big on surprises.

So that was the appointment in a nutshell! I've been feeling pretty good lately other than the more frequent braxton hicks (which I've had since 18 weeks!) According to my exams it doesn't seem to be doing much other than making me uncomfortable. We looked at a great apartment the other night, it's real cheap but not in the greatest area. Although the street is very quiet and no one seems to bother it.  We're not sure what's going to happen yet, it's kinda if we get it we get it if not than not. We don't really have enough saved up for 1st, last and sec so we'll see. Either way we'll figure it out! Least of our problems, right?! Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!