As the date is fast approaching, like any mother I am a bag of mixed emotions. Excited, scared, nervous and many more. Tonight I sat and thought about where my head is at and realized through all the hormones and emotions flooding through me more than anything I am ready. I never thought when we first got baby Eddie's diagnosis that I'd ever be ready for the days to come. Knowing the difficulties the next month or so will bring and the possible difficulties he may face from day one on. Now though, I'm ready. I realize that no matter what we we're lucky enough to have this perfect little guy in our lives. He has taught us so much already and I can't even begin to imagine how much he will teach us in the future. I've learned to appreciate all in my life especially my relationship with my husband and daughter. I never would have thought my life would be this amazing and how lucky I'd get. I couldn't have asked for anything more. So tonight I've decided to write a letter to baby Eddie....
As your arrival approaches I sit and think about the ups and downs of the past 9 months and what your future may hold. I have no idea what's in store for you or what types of difficulties you will face. I do know that you will face difficulties probably many. You will enter this world being forced to be a strong little guy who will have to fight from minute one, but with this comes the knowing that you will be strong! You will fight, I know this because Daddy and I made you and we have fought for you since day one and will never stop. You may have difficult times and you may have it harder at times than others around you, but know that no matter what you are the most special, brave, strong little boy in the world! Daddy and I will love you more than imaginable and will fight along side you the whole way. We haven't let fear dictate a single decision we've made these past 9 months and promise you that we will continue to keep that frame of mind throughout your life. We will teach you to never let fear get in the way of your amazing and bright future. You may at times feel different than those around you but know that EVERYONE is different and even though you may feel at times that you are more different than others know that the more different you are the more special you are. We are the luckiest parents in the world, we have been blessed with two amazing, inspirational and wonderful children. I know this and haven't even met you yet. Thank you for choosing us as your family! I love you and can't wait to meet you perfect face in a couple of weeks!
"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire
goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human
being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit." ~Albert Schweitzer